Goodbye

You know I love you. I feel I've loved you forever. Lately, I haven't been feeling very well. Truth be told, I'm tired. Out somewhere one night, I realized something and I haven't been able to shake it. Since you’ve been away, I've spent almost my entire life with ghosts. We've been like close friends and out of loneliness it occurred to me that it was time for me to bury them. I can't do that here. I'm so sorry. No matter how hard I try to fight it off, I'm left with the feeling that I have to go. I have no idea where I'm going, but I know I have to do this. If I don't, I'm afraid I'll self destruct and worse, you'll be there to see it happen. Be safe. Know that I tried very hard to stay. Know that you were my one and only. I'll miss you with every beat of my heart. Our life together was the only home I've ever had. I wouldn't trade it for anything. I love you. I always will. Goodbye."


: an excerpt of courage to express how i am feeling inside...after watching CSI sarah sidle's goodbye to grissom...It feels like i am sarah then...i know where she's coming...and now..."lost somewhere"